Tides of the Enigma

I don’t know how

it came to be,

that love became a dangerous

reality;

I don’t know how

it came to be

that love and lust

felt the same to me.

Were my intentions misguided?

Was my mind confused?

I don’t know how it happened,

that my love was misused.

Person after person,

name after name,

I crafted a prison,

creating my chains.

I heaped up my shame

link by link;

failing to think

of the shackles I would shoulder,

or the boulder my body would become.

It has been written

you reap what you sow,

I found out

that is so;

By the chains I created

I was blinded and bound,

a weight so heavy

in sorrow I drowned;

I was too lost,

never to be found…

But then I heard

The Name

that breaks the bones

of chains

and fleeces freedom

from our pain;

Who faucets fear

down the drain

and drowns away

our shame.

My God, My God,

how you’ve rescued

and set me free,

how you’ve shown me

what love should be.

My chains have been broken

my prison behind me,

my shame will not stand

since you are beside me.

By your grace I’ve been forgiven,

and given a new story;

glory to glory

no shackles are before me.

By a new name I am known,

for the love You have shown

has thrown me back together,

restoring me part-by-part

healing my heart-of-hearts.